these eyes !!

these eyes...

                                                                      "These Eyes"

These eyes cry every night for you
These arms long to hold you again
The hurtin's on me, yeah
But I will never be free, no, my baby, no, no
You gave a promise to me, yeah
And you broke it, you broke it, oh, no

These eyes watched you bring my world to an end
This heart could not accept and pretend
The hurtin's on me, yeah
But I will never be free, no, no, no
You took the vow with me, yeah
And you spoke it, you spoke it, babe

These eyes are cryin'
These eyes have seen a lot of loves
But they're never gonna see another one like I had with you

These eyes are cryin'
These eyes have seen a lot of loves
But they're never gonna see another one like I had with you

These eyes are cryin'
These eyes have seen a lot of loves
But they're never gonna see another one like I had with you

These eyes cry every night for you
These arms, these arms long to hold you, hold you again, ahh

These eyes are cryin'
These eyes have seen a lot of loves
But they're never gonna see another one like I had with you

These eyes are cryin'
These eyes have seen a lot of loves
But they're never gonna see another one like I had with you

These eyes are cryin'
These eyes have seen a lot of loves
But they're never gonna see another one like I had with you

These eyes are cryin'
These eyes have seen a lot of loves
But they're never gonna see another one like I had with you
Baby, baby, baby, baby

raKH05041982

let music destroy you..

if music destroys you.. consider yourself lucky.

there are uglier things in this world that can fuck you up.. destroy you!!

this will destroy you - threads

the complete album is a gem of a piece. bus you should be in the best frame of mind.

raKH05041982

LOST!!

not sure if its alcohol or its the feeling under the influence of alcohol that is more dangerously addictive..

i wish i could be sailing the ocean .. the doldrums of waves crashing.. crashing dreams..

and then once in a while a fish of hope gets your hook.. the worm stuck to it is what deceives fish that has high hopes of crossing great oceans..

fish of hope gets sliced.. and is served on a platter.. but the alcohol on the table has won the battle...

fish is consumed without acknowledgement..

fish has no one to cry too.. and so did the worm.

the circle of life .. it does get complete. it does not explain the laws it follows.

the circle of life at times ends in straight line .. a straight line... open up.

what we do may not be what we seek. what we seek may not be what we expect. what we expect may not be what we want. what we want may not be what we care about. what we care about may be already LOST.

sometimes things we lose remain closer to our hearts.
while our hearts are LOST.,

raKH05041982

music .. let it be your life

yea.... let it be your life... music.

everybody you love will love someone else you dont love.

music won't.

its not all that ...

over the years.. i have learnt... being an asshole is not all that difficult.

you just have to try ...

#FTW

sometimes.. some times just stay put.

sometimes random songs pop up in your head and then stay there as if its no ones business.

so is the case with some thoughts, some day dreams and most nightmares..

yesterdays dreams became nightmares by the time they ended...


sometimes its so awesome to be lost.. directionless..

sometimes its so not good to be on the path that people want you to take..

sometimes its just nice to listen to your heart and then do the opposite thing...

sometimes its worth it.. most of the times.. its just a passing phase...

new radicals.. your get what you give.




raKH05041982

the END.. its just a beginning.

now this is one hell of a performance...

get high.. go to a concert.. remember you hate the world.. world is being mean to you. you cant play smart..
you wish to stay naive.. simple.. innocent... you want to live for the day.. die at peace.


but life wishes you a roller coaster life... so they play this song... and you are blown into pieces you cant and don't want to call your own... but in the end they are you. they reflect a trait of you. you.

and then life drift on....

the END.. its just a beginning. BHENCHOD... live it.. rock it.. its only gonna happen once... LIFE!!


raKH05041982

i forgot my password today..

there was trouble few days back.. now the bottle of rum is empty and the trouble is gone..
will watch queen today... flappy bird was useless today...

the last person i wanted to be on twitter is an twitter addict... but phony fuckers are everywhere...

not that i am a big twitteratti ... but come on.. what the hell.. i hate that person. :)


come to think of it.. i shouldn't have forgotten my password today. gmail.. you did help me recover it in less than a minute.. you are so cute... (rum talking.. though rum didn't make me forget the password.)


PS: hope they find atleast 1 person alove on the Malaysian airline.. he can tell us what exactly happend.

raKH05041982

a week that was different...

it was indeed a very very fuckin beautiful last week.. felt weak.. grew stronger.. meaner and will mould myself to be a even stronger bastard to face this bhenchod world.

life as such will be the best teacher. time will be the best tester. and old monk will be the best companion.

worked hard.. smarter.. drank responsibly.. smile on her face was the baksheesh ..

life.. we all know.. not all is free in this world... but what ever is... just grab it.

sweetleaf

raKH05041982

wishlist.

as i am getting older i am getting wiser... and more is the urge to be not so wise.. not so old!! but a lot lot more innocent and naive!!

coz every day of life shall br enjoyed with a pinch of hope and a dash of faith.

ŠweeŤleaf

she would drive me up the wall
only to tell me the grass was greener on the other side..
what a women!! what a kitty!!

#ŠweeŤleaf

god made weed so that you can touch him!! he is high in the sky!!

if only weed was pink in color... it wud be legal as women would find it irresistibly fascinating!!

raKH05041982

2014.. the year of cat..

a lot has happened and a lot more is happening.. a baBa died a n new baBa was born.. nekochan was the highlight of the year..

almost a year... no updates were posted here..

"a lot lot more old monk was consumed and life melted just like the helpless ice cube in the glass of rum.. "

dreamt of her last night... it was trying to tell me something but dreams are delusive.. i need to learn to live with this fact..

strangers become good friend and drift apart!!

if only i can turn back time and make those mistakes in a much better fashion..

failed to learn Japanese.. failed to lose weight.. failed to control old monk .. failed to save.. failed to live as per the expectations of the world.. failed to let down people who actually deserve to be let down.. but failing to learn japanese hurts the most.. i mean it wud really change me as a person.. on similar lines knowing a lil bit tamil has changed me ..

but wont say learned a lot new ways to fail in new things.. coz frankly didnt do anything new..

andaman was beautiful... 15 days of peace..

brother's marriage was nice.. happy for him that he has a rope to hang on.. 

moms found a nice way to keep herself occupied and live her dream.. 

next year it shall be different.. i wish it will be... i ll pray for it to be different and definitely more interesting ..




raKH05041982

liquor !!

if its the whiskey talking.. dont stop.. !! if its the beer burp.. i am all ears!! if its the rum ka gum.. i am with you!!

sometime the fuck in the head wont just stop raping your every thought and thats when u want to bychslap the heck out of your mind.....


:D


#rape epic rape of innocence... 

raKH05041982

larger than life.. smarter than death is nothing

sometimes we all think we are better than others and others are thinking exactly opposite..
and why does grass have to be on the other side??

magnetic fields govern us.. gravity rules us.. 

hunger is the biggest drawback and it brings the worst evil out..

crissy was right.. its all about confidance...

raKH05041982

ray of hope dies with flight of dope..

someday ill be her saturday night while she continues to be my moaning monday..

raKH05041982

good sons life

sometimes it makes more sense not to look for answers.. just have a chilled beer.. eat chicken biryani and commit yourself that from tomorrow you will be a good son...

most of ll my sins will die with me.. but the best part is i can selectively chose to forget the things i don't want to remember... so its #perfect

sometimes its amazing to fall in love with songs...
COLDPLAY-PARADISE (this song helps me remember her.. and miss me)


raKH05041982

all is violent .. all is bright

sometimes being an asshole is so easy.. its just not funny...
random crazy carefree and thoughtless actions help you be 1..

if i had one msg for the last few weeks of my life..its would be... i am sorry for being an asshole i didn't enjoy... i cud have done better.. i will .. try at least!!

if only i had a magic wand like that chutiya harry potter.. i wud have changed  few things in the last week.. that will definitely wont haunt me when i am drunk on my fav old monk...

butterNan.. u are sweet.. i am crazy.. i wud only get fucked if u followed this blog like 1 once asked u to.. just pray that no one puts those electrical wires in to this dumb brain of mine .. afterall there are now more than 9 million bicycles in Beijing..  ;)

i am still yet to find a nice alias for her.. all she does is be her. and all i do is ..admire her..
she is indeed very very beautiful.. and she is my hello kitty !!
she is random and really interesting ..
she is fun to be in admiration with..
she is skittish..
she is ...

captions are just words.. sometimes words are just not enough..

thoughts arrive like a butterfly but her aura lingers on... #crazyness

its been a long since when i last heard god is an astronaut and this time its much more fun..

(life is crazy naa?? after all its just our state of mind.. #life there is always a war going on .. )

raKH05041982

#chand

and all i cared for is how can i keep admiring her beauty... she looked stunningly simple...and i was so so helpless :D

jeena isi ka naam hai!!

#chand

raKH05041982

kya kare.. majboor hai ...

There are times when you want to do more… so you strive for it!!

and then there are times when you want to do more and you crib about it!!

 and then there are times when you want to do more and you do nothing about it!!

Days come and days go… and then one day we realized.. you like to live your life during nights and not days… this happened to me not long back.. but the trauma caused more trouble than I could imagine..

So I lived my life the way I wanted… and do things you own way… in the process i ended up upsetting a few individuals and the biggest damage take was by myself…

People get pissed off because they have a lot of expectations out of you… rather they think that you are nothing but a puppet who should be in their life to entertain them …

this phenomenon gets much more applicable in marriages… you have seen a lot of movies and now you are confident that you are the hero.. and the wife is the heroine…  you expect a lot from each other but when the left hand side does not match the right hand side (LHS not equal to RHS)… you start thinking … bhenchod!! .. kya dimmage chat gayi zindagy…

but then if you get a free cookie at night… you are back to square one… pop a beer and celebrate the festival…

many a times you think since the packaging is brilliant.. the toy inside will be fun to play with.. . you like the packaging… for example a G.I. Joe.. and you put that in the hands of your offspring… little to realize whether  he really like the toy or not… if he really wants to play with it or not… but since you expect him to play with it you force him… and since the young one is always been brought up that way… he starts playing with the toy.. there is no issue.. the child really don’t have the brain to comprehend the loss and parents are happy… they feel victorious… in a way its like… all is well that ends well..

sometimes this ends up being true even for your life partner… and life to follow..

shadi kyun kiya??

Baap ne bola isliye..

Ladki??

Woh to thee naa.. chacha ne dhundi thee..

Chacha ne?? :o

Haan unki her decision papa ke liye phaydemand rahi hai..

Aur aapke liye..

Kya?? mere kiye kya??

Khair chodiye..  bachhey kyun kiye.. ??

pata nahi.. bus ho gaye.. kisi ne bataya nahi tha.. bacchey bhi ho sakte hai…

abhi kya??

pata nahi.. lekin ek baat hai.. mein mere bachhey ko engineer banaunga..

wah wah.. aap engineer .. aapka beta engineer..

haan mere papa bhi engineer hai :D

admission ka kya??

IIT hai naa… who IIT jayega.

Lekin iit to bada tough hai...

Koi baat nahi.. jab who 18 baras ja ho jayega.. tab tak govt kam se kam do sou IIT bana chuki hogi..

 waise aapka bete ko engineering pasand hai..??

nahi nahi… abhi to woh paanch saal ka hai..

aur aapne use engineer banana ka decision final kar diya??

Who kya hai.. ki misses bhi wahi chahti hai..

Oh really??

Usmein kya hai.. simple hai.. 10^th aur 12^th mein use acchey number lane hai.. fir ek chhotisy entrance exam. .. then 4 saal mein engineering…

Jitna aap bata rahe hai.. kya who utna aasan hai??

Bilkul..hamne bhi waise hi kiya tha.. 

Fir to aapki shadi bhi aise hi gayi hogi..

Haan haan bilkul..

Aur bacchey..?? (surprised)

Who bhi aise hi… bole to… raat ko mehnat jo karte the…lekin kisi ne bataya nahi bachhey bhi honge.. L

Things go on like this in many corners... and many a times they just happen… sometimes few strive for it.. . others don’t… sometimes they crib about it… others don’t… sometimes few do nothing about it… while others BLOG!!

Proud to blog!! (though actually no one actually reads it..)

raKH05041982

butterNan
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awesome awful

it was awesome to see her after a long time.. But cudnt help avoiding the #beingasshole syndrome. #getagrip #lifeisameltingicecube #timewarp

its awesome to be listening to my fav songs from gun n roses..

its awful.. old monk i over.. ill have to try the white rum now...

its awesome .. dhungach bend pan footale...

its awesome.. i bought chips.. as chaknaa

its awesome i had a working holiday yesterday...

its awful that ill have to go to work tomorrow.... 

its was good day.. in the end.. and a good night is to begin...

yup .. even the last post was dedicated to them...

raKH05041982

pussy cats

its funny how few people just want the best of you.. i am not talking about bosses or parent...
i am talking about people who are nothing to you but everything...

you are on a sinusoidal path..
during crest when everything is perfect.. she smiles back at you..to you it makes her the most beautiful person in the world...
during trough when the times are not in your favor.. you only wish that you could do something for her to smile at you... so that she could absolutely not avoid you....

cats love milk.. men love milk.. but both want it to be served in a different style..
cats will drink milk with eyes closed.. men will drink milk with eyes wide open...
cats will not complain if the milk is cold.. men will not complain as long the milk is served in natural cups..
cats don't need sugar in milk.. no chocolate drink.. men don't have this option...
cats will drink the milk and fuck off.. and men will linger on...

mood is a funny thing.. but moody people are definitely not funny... specially if the world of the moody person revolves around self importance.. self pity

when you are nor the only one who mistreats them..life can really be misleading.

so when life gets tough.. all you can do is get tougher.. milk help you get tough..

have you ever seen a cat work so hard for milk??

raKH05041982