there comes a time...

there comes a time ... there comes a time that wont ever stop for you...

there comes a time when alcohol becomes the best friend .. your worst enemy...

there come a time when food becomes your first love when you want wish you were on a diet...

there comes a time when cigarettes become your basic need .. needlessly...

there comes a time when you hate your job but you hate your long weekend more ...

there comes a time when you can buy sex .. but you would rather stare at the sun...

there comes a time when rock'n'roll makes your heart at peace but your mind at a war...

there comes a time when love is abundant but all you need us ego massage...

there comes a time when you fit exactly in your own shoes but they give a shoe bite on your soul...

there comes a time when your stomach is bigger than your heart...

there comes a time when ice cube melt faster than the passing phase in your life...

there is a time when your mind works faster than your hands... only out of phase ...

there is time when you want time to stop... but it moves swiftly as always...

there comes a time when life on the other side looks... greener...

there comes a time when time moves real fast and your life seems at a standstill....

there is a time when you want to catch your childhood buy all you reach out is your middle age...

there comes a time when God whats your love but the devil gets your anger...

there comes a time when your see a well known stranger in the mirror...

it is when .. you know the time is right for everything to be not right but not wrong either....
it was always this way.. but you and I were to naive.. or too smart to ignore the basics of life..
this is what we were taught when we were young.. this is what we were taught in school.. to believe in ...

but there comes a time when we realize .. when we wake up... come to our senses... dumb-folded...
there comes a time we try to sort things out.. only to get more entangled .. more stuck and more occupied...
and then time runs out.. the end is always the same.

the end is sweet and its peaceful. PERIOD.

raKH05041982

samsara ... the circle of life

this is a vicious circle... #life, #office, #alcohol, #introspection, #penance. #repeat

circle of life will continue to roll. . .

raKH05041982

soft target!!

there is new she.. who is kicking the old she out .. you so strong.. you so beautiful.

#FML #FTW

raKH05041982

... then alcohol kicks in...

so yet another day when i realized how i live in the world i have created in my head... and built walls around me... my mind

the room is filled with my own fancy imagination.. thoughts that wont come true in my real world... may be... may be not in my created infectious world...

life gives chances to wake up... break those walls... reach out...  hold those who seek your hand... bank on those shoulders that are real...

but then alcohol kicks in...

cements those walls in mind... builds those walls stronger.. taller... and life goes on...

to dream is not a crime... and to dream all the more is not a crime... dreams paint those walls.. 

but then alcohol kicks in...

blurs those dreams... shadows those thoughts... dilutes the goal...

to dream you need to sleep... and to make those dreams come true you need wake up... act!!

you try to search for the needle that points north in hay of prejudice... but in vein...

but then alcohol kicks in...

sleep goes for a toss.. and in turn dreams have to wait.. and the ones that come are intoxicated... 

intoxicated dreams.. troubled waters... walls that wont break... mind that wont escape the prison build by these closed walls..

and again alcohol kicks in... 

conscious comes in to play... reality strikes... lightening crashes...

dreams become a thought that makes you laugh... reality ridicules the mind... life gets tough.. 

and then additional alcohol kicks in...

another glass of drink is on the table... thought are clouded... but there is a silver lining...

body aches... thoughts pinch... the ice slowly melts... it reminds you of the fading breath... you feel tired..

times limited... so is alcohol... but dreams go on .. mind goes on and on in to a loop..

each loop opens a new dream.. a dream that helps you build the wall higher... clouds your mind 

and so the story goes.. you wait patiently for alcohol to get over.. so the dream can end.. the walls can break... may be collapse on its own burden..

but then alcohol kicks in..

your friends get the liquid gold... and the story never ends... somehow you take the U turn... and life starts over.. the second U turn brings you to square one...

yet another day.. yet another thought... yet another peg... 

circle of incomplete life completes. restarts. resumes. 

..

#COLDPLAY - EVERY TEARDROP IS A WATERFALL

#METALLICA - TURN THE PAGE



raKH05041982

kal hum unki galiyon se gujare.. dil tirat bitar ho gaya..  unki yaad ne pal aisa jehrila bana diya.. jeena beraham ho gaya..

woh pal.. woh lamhe.. woh baatein..

itni jaldi etihaas ho jayegi.. shayad kabhi socha naa tha..

zindagy kya gul khilayegi yeh ek ajooba reh jayega...

kaash.. hamare haath mein woh kismat hoti ki.. khuda bhi khud kehta.. aur kya chahiye tujhey pagle...

#nekochan

and then she turned away... as if it all was a dream... 

raKH05041982

these eyes !!

these eyes...

                                                                      "These Eyes"

These eyes cry every night for you
These arms long to hold you again
The hurtin's on me, yeah
But I will never be free, no, my baby, no, no
You gave a promise to me, yeah
And you broke it, you broke it, oh, no

These eyes watched you bring my world to an end
This heart could not accept and pretend
The hurtin's on me, yeah
But I will never be free, no, no, no
You took the vow with me, yeah
And you spoke it, you spoke it, babe

These eyes are cryin'
These eyes have seen a lot of loves
But they're never gonna see another one like I had with you

These eyes are cryin'
These eyes have seen a lot of loves
But they're never gonna see another one like I had with you

These eyes are cryin'
These eyes have seen a lot of loves
But they're never gonna see another one like I had with you

These eyes cry every night for you
These arms, these arms long to hold you, hold you again, ahh

These eyes are cryin'
These eyes have seen a lot of loves
But they're never gonna see another one like I had with you

These eyes are cryin'
These eyes have seen a lot of loves
But they're never gonna see another one like I had with you

These eyes are cryin'
These eyes have seen a lot of loves
But they're never gonna see another one like I had with you

These eyes are cryin'
These eyes have seen a lot of loves
But they're never gonna see another one like I had with you
Baby, baby, baby, baby

raKH05041982

let music destroy you..

if music destroys you.. consider yourself lucky.

there are uglier things in this world that can fuck you up.. destroy you!!

this will destroy you - threads

the complete album is a gem of a piece. bus you should be in the best frame of mind.

raKH05041982

LOST!!

not sure if its alcohol or its the feeling under the influence of alcohol that is more dangerously addictive..

i wish i could be sailing the ocean .. the doldrums of waves crashing.. crashing dreams..

and then once in a while a fish of hope gets your hook.. the worm stuck to it is what deceives fish that has high hopes of crossing great oceans..

fish of hope gets sliced.. and is served on a platter.. but the alcohol on the table has won the battle...

fish is consumed without acknowledgement..

fish has no one to cry too.. and so did the worm.

the circle of life .. it does get complete. it does not explain the laws it follows.

the circle of life at times ends in straight line .. a straight line... open up.

what we do may not be what we seek. what we seek may not be what we expect. what we expect may not be what we want. what we want may not be what we care about. what we care about may be already LOST.

sometimes things we lose remain closer to our hearts.
while our hearts are LOST.,

raKH05041982

music .. let it be your life

yea.... let it be your life... music.

everybody you love will love someone else you dont love.

music won't.

its not all that ...

over the years.. i have learnt... being an asshole is not all that difficult.

you just have to try ...

#FTW

sometimes.. some times just stay put.

sometimes random songs pop up in your head and then stay there as if its no ones business.

so is the case with some thoughts, some day dreams and most nightmares..

yesterdays dreams became nightmares by the time they ended...


sometimes its so awesome to be lost.. directionless..

sometimes its so not good to be on the path that people want you to take..

sometimes its just nice to listen to your heart and then do the opposite thing...

sometimes its worth it.. most of the times.. its just a passing phase...

new radicals.. your get what you give.




raKH05041982

the END.. its just a beginning.

now this is one hell of a performance...

get high.. go to a concert.. remember you hate the world.. world is being mean to you. you cant play smart..
you wish to stay naive.. simple.. innocent... you want to live for the day.. die at peace.


but life wishes you a roller coaster life... so they play this song... and you are blown into pieces you cant and don't want to call your own... but in the end they are you. they reflect a trait of you. you.

and then life drift on....

the END.. its just a beginning. BHENCHOD... live it.. rock it.. its only gonna happen once... LIFE!!


raKH05041982

i forgot my password today..

there was trouble few days back.. now the bottle of rum is empty and the trouble is gone..
will watch queen today... flappy bird was useless today...

the last person i wanted to be on twitter is an twitter addict... but phony fuckers are everywhere...

not that i am a big twitteratti ... but come on.. what the hell.. i hate that person. :)


come to think of it.. i shouldn't have forgotten my password today. gmail.. you did help me recover it in less than a minute.. you are so cute... (rum talking.. though rum didn't make me forget the password.)


PS: hope they find atleast 1 person alove on the Malaysian airline.. he can tell us what exactly happend.

raKH05041982

a week that was different...

it was indeed a very very fuckin beautiful last week.. felt weak.. grew stronger.. meaner and will mould myself to be a even stronger bastard to face this bhenchod world.

life as such will be the best teacher. time will be the best tester. and old monk will be the best companion.

worked hard.. smarter.. drank responsibly.. smile on her face was the baksheesh ..

life.. we all know.. not all is free in this world... but what ever is... just grab it.

sweetleaf

raKH05041982

wishlist.

as i am getting older i am getting wiser... and more is the urge to be not so wise.. not so old!! but a lot lot more innocent and naive!!

coz every day of life shall br enjoyed with a pinch of hope and a dash of faith.

ŠweeŤleaf

she would drive me up the wall
only to tell me the grass was greener on the other side..
what a women!! what a kitty!!

#ŠweeŤleaf

god made weed so that you can touch him!! he is high in the sky!!

if only weed was pink in color... it wud be legal as women would find it irresistibly fascinating!!

raKH05041982

2014.. the year of cat..

a lot has happened and a lot more is happening.. a baBa died a n new baBa was born.. nekochan was the highlight of the year..

almost a year... no updates were posted here..

"a lot lot more old monk was consumed and life melted just like the helpless ice cube in the glass of rum.. "

dreamt of her last night... it was trying to tell me something but dreams are delusive.. i need to learn to live with this fact..

strangers become good friend and drift apart!!

if only i can turn back time and make those mistakes in a much better fashion..

failed to learn Japanese.. failed to lose weight.. failed to control old monk .. failed to save.. failed to live as per the expectations of the world.. failed to let down people who actually deserve to be let down.. but failing to learn japanese hurts the most.. i mean it wud really change me as a person.. on similar lines knowing a lil bit tamil has changed me ..

but wont say learned a lot new ways to fail in new things.. coz frankly didnt do anything new..

andaman was beautiful... 15 days of peace..

brother's marriage was nice.. happy for him that he has a rope to hang on.. 

moms found a nice way to keep herself occupied and live her dream.. 

next year it shall be different.. i wish it will be... i ll pray for it to be different and definitely more interesting ..




raKH05041982

liquor !!

if its the whiskey talking.. dont stop.. !! if its the beer burp.. i am all ears!! if its the rum ka gum.. i am with you!!

sometime the fuck in the head wont just stop raping your every thought and thats when u want to bychslap the heck out of your mind.....


:D


#rape epic rape of innocence... 

raKH05041982

larger than life.. smarter than death is nothing

sometimes we all think we are better than others and others are thinking exactly opposite..
and why does grass have to be on the other side??

magnetic fields govern us.. gravity rules us.. 

hunger is the biggest drawback and it brings the worst evil out..

crissy was right.. its all about confidance...

raKH05041982

ray of hope dies with flight of dope..

someday ill be her saturday night while she continues to be my moaning monday..

raKH05041982

good sons life

sometimes it makes more sense not to look for answers.. just have a chilled beer.. eat chicken biryani and commit yourself that from tomorrow you will be a good son...

most of ll my sins will die with me.. but the best part is i can selectively chose to forget the things i don't want to remember... so its #perfect

sometimes its amazing to fall in love with songs...
COLDPLAY-PARADISE (this song helps me remember her.. and miss me)


raKH05041982

all is violent .. all is bright

sometimes being an asshole is so easy.. its just not funny...
random crazy carefree and thoughtless actions help you be 1..

if i had one msg for the last few weeks of my life..its would be... i am sorry for being an asshole i didn't enjoy... i cud have done better.. i will .. try at least!!

if only i had a magic wand like that chutiya harry potter.. i wud have changed  few things in the last week.. that will definitely wont haunt me when i am drunk on my fav old monk...

butterNan.. u are sweet.. i am crazy.. i wud only get fucked if u followed this blog like 1 once asked u to.. just pray that no one puts those electrical wires in to this dumb brain of mine .. afterall there are now more than 9 million bicycles in Beijing..  ;)

i am still yet to find a nice alias for her.. all she does is be her. and all i do is ..admire her..
she is indeed very very beautiful.. and she is my hello kitty !!
she is random and really interesting ..
she is fun to be in admiration with..
she is skittish..
she is ...

captions are just words.. sometimes words are just not enough..

thoughts arrive like a butterfly but her aura lingers on... #crazyness

its been a long since when i last heard god is an astronaut and this time its much more fun..

(life is crazy naa?? after all its just our state of mind.. #life there is always a war going on .. )

raKH05041982