oldmonk week

its fun how alcohol helps you rediscover yourself every time..

this first time i am all happy boss is not going to be in office for 3 days.. decided to rush home.. drink a celebration peg.. and watch one piece on the way back.. instead of cursing innocent ppl stuck in traffic...
solid chutiyapa.. psp mein battery nahi and bottle mein oldmonk nahi... fir sirf chips khaya and khaj khuja ke batti bhujaya..

this 2nd last time i was with Mr. kool dude # 1 - i am so fat that my mamma would mistake me for a dumpling :P........ i drank half a bottle of oldmonk and i was normal.. i enjoyed... i ate good good.. zero hangover..
this last time i sat with Mr. kool dude # 2 - he is actually kool and his mama knows it... i drank almost half a bottle...but i was so tired when i reached home that i forgot to eat eat.. i just crashed.. and next day i had a miserable time.. i still dont understand how i sent those sms to her and made a beeg fucking chut out of me...

both the days i was thinking about the same things i generally think when i am with old monk... why does alcohol have to be a killer.. but come to think of it it.. if life is killer too.. life does not allow you to live forever.. so lets make life simpler.. blame life.. blame alcohol and feel good about life and alcohol..

last few weeks have been a little weird .. kolaveri happend to me like no other song has gripped me in a very long time.. its fun to see how these ppl with resources and lot of exposure end up making kool things...  shruti, dhanush, aishwarya made the world go mad... with the help of aniruddh.. a guy who will now be confused how to continue making good music... much more than that unfortunately even if he makes shitty music ppl will still end up rooting for him.. thats how india has been for the last 3000 years

pawar got slapped and for the first time a common maharashtrian understood how difficulty it must be to carry a heavy loaded head over your shoulders.. pawar almost fell and the poor sardaar actually got a gand phatti meri feeling but he sailed through it well.. as he is a sardar in the end.. he has to lead with example .. good or bad...

anna was sarcastic.. he said ek hi?? it was a true rotflol moment...

also last week boss was not in office for a long long time.. approximately 3 days.. so WTF was chilled out.. !!

though he tried to rape my mental inner peace over the phone.. i was actually staring at a busty babe on the streets of sector 17 ...imagining the stress the elastic was under.. woh aam nahi kharbooja the...

mein to kabhi utna stress mein nahi raha hoon.. so i should be smiling... even if boss i yelling....

aaj Dev ws all pumped up to drink this friday night out.. poora khamba leke pooja kar raha hai.. leking kal exhibition mein gand marana hai.. and ho sake to BB bhi khelna hai... lets see.. abhi mikhail ka daru phone kall bhi nahi aaya abhi tak..

kya hoga next.. bhenchod.. if u are still reading this.. u must be fuckin fucked and lost your mind..

this is not what it seems...


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mistake can keep you busy...

i am turning out to be such an asshole..

i am making same mistakes for the last 10 years..

its as if i am fucking addicted to making mistakes...

and i make them at random interval...

but a little humor is always good....

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dream come true....

yeah yeah... delhi it will be...

metallica it will be...

and sleeper class travel it will be!!!

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tired as hell and bored to death...

ok.. i had quit alcohol .. i mean i have quit alcohol.. but my will is not strong...
i want to party only on few pre selected days... the days when i know i am going to get sloshed.. get wasted...
but parties dont happen planned..

lots of beer wine and good food followed by some good grass...

grass is always green when the friend pays for it.. .:D

so a little bit of grass happened... and that leaded to more beer and more good food..

and no time to rest... so now tired as hell and bored to death..

and kaizeen continues to play a havoc in my head.. oh.. she is looking like a angel today..

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is it ever too late..??

sometimes you don't understand the hidden msg behind curtains...

but later when you realize it.. u want to listen to these 2 songs again and again...

the first 1 comes a couple of days after valentines day.. u dream of a girl.. for years.. meet her.. and then like a chutiya dont check your inbox... which has a very romantic song waiting to fall on your ears.. ..

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=eHQG6-DojVw

so like a fucked up retard you let time spoil your khichadi.. that u intend to kook...

time flies.. and tides turn.. the girl whom you think you love from the hidden bottom of your heart falls in love with a guy much smarter than you.. but she knows ... she cant break 2 hearts at a time ... so she breaks the one thats on the distant horizon.. which will mend faster than a young child getting amused over a fucking filthy lollipop ... and times does heal it better ...

she send yet another song which says something that i have still have not deciphered.. and i am happy that my fucking dumb brain is happy that she is happy to be happy... i am a dream in the end.. that dreams of happy me...

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=eHQG6-DojVw

butterNan.. i am sorry more than you are.. i was being an asshole..i know u dont follow my blog ..so i can abuse myself bindhast.... you are a beautiful person .. but i am super kickass too...





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sly.. shrewd.. though innocent

definitely not about god....

human mind .. why cant it all think alike... or should the statement be.. thank god!!... not all think alike..

all others animals have mind too.. but the difference is.. they almost think alike.. they want to eat .. fuck only to keep the race alive and die.. humans do a lot more than this...though originally they were designed to do these 3 simple tasks..

but human mind had a different plan.. 1 of the mind made Buddha.. the other made Hitler.. and so on..

complications didn't end here.. human mind evolved further into his and her.. at this time my mind clearly says not to get into anything complicated...

weird it is ...how the same mind things differently at different situations and under different influence ...
alcohol makes the strongest muthfukr emotional... and cocaine makes every chutiya a tarzen...
been watching a lot of intense shit on TV.. 1 old man creates history.. so other 2 bastards want to replicate the old man .. the 1st asshole fools a whole nation .. wants to go on 2nd rath yatra... while the 2nd asshole thinks 3 days of fast will wash away 3 weeks of bloodbath..

all this aside.. my own mind is having a tough time coping up with difference it is having with itself..  the funny part of the mind is not active .. but the cynic is alive and kicking ... its clear.. the mind is not free .. it is engulfed in some hate love relationship with external forces that are beginning to control the controls..

every now and then i try ..i try real hard but i don't try long enough.. you cant say i give up.. i give in...

iska kisine kya beegada thaa.. jo iske beena jeena adhura hai :)

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aasman se tapko.. khajoor pe latko..

a

 a man sleeping peacefully - a sign of successful story .. someday.. absolutely someday... Insha'Allah!!

time... yet again the most important resource of our life... ppl say money is more important.. but they are wrong.. it is indeed time that is the most important... i know a lot of rich bastards who have all the money in the world to enjoy life...but no time... but i also know a lot of ppl who have all the time in the world to enjoy and do so even with very little money at hand....

now the thing that is irritating me is how i best utilize my time.. there was a time.. when i spent a lot of time ..usually early and late in the night chatting and posting mindfucked useless posts expecting a lot of likes on facebook... at the end of it i slept late..got up late... and as a result traveled for  extra hours during peak hours.. for a distance that can be covered in less thatn 45mins.. i spend close to 1 hour 45 mins....

now that i have told every1 that FBI deleted my facebook profile and i have actually stopped spending time on facebook... and eventually this has resulted into less time chatting... i have absolutely nothing to do... early late night... so sleep happens early.. getting up happes early.. i avoid traffic and reach office avoiding traffic within an hour...

when i come to office there is absolutely no 1.. so i can sit and surf.. have a T without any1 irritating me...

i am not saying this that now that i am spending an extra additional hour at office (obviously i am not working at this hour).. that my life has all of a sudden got a new meaning... buts its just that ...
mujhey aisa lag raha hai... mein aasman se tapkaa hoon and khajoor pe latkaa hoon...

a time to again mention a song that i really like...

zindagi khwaab hai, khwaab men, jhooth hai kya
aur bhala sach hai kya
sab sach hai
zindagi khwaab hai.......

dil ne ham se jo kaha, ham ne vaisa hi kiya \- 2
phir kabhi furasat se sochenge, bura tha ya bhala
zindagi khwaab hai...........
taken from JAGTE RAHO - 1956 and amazingly sung by MUKESH

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war trouble in the head :(

i still have not figured out to a way to be happy.. the harder i try to run away from reality.. the faster i sink in a sea of sadness :(

i am not sure why this is happening to me... there are so many ppl with more trouble in life.. but yet a smile exists on their face... life is not unfair enough to end it..but life is not fair enough too live it too...

there is a fucking war going down in Libya..   as of now i just want to thank god that i am not there ...
its much better down here in navi mumbai.... i get to go to a lounge later tonight and watch the man u Vs. Chelsea match with a cold glass of sprite... alcohol is out of the question as i am still recovering from a deadly bacterial infection....

i guess i just need to keep the mind occupied and focus on good things in life...

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light at the end of the tunnel...

....


the world is a cruel place to live in....
every time you are about to give up...
u c a light at the end of the tunnel...
god is sitting at the other end smoking a joint..
and all u smell is hope...
you reach out to him ...only to find out ...
saale ne akele akele poora joint foonk diya!! ;)


sometimes crazy thoughts make sense!! 


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dreams....

i had a yet another fucked 2 crazy dreams...i guess i dont remember 100% of the dream but they were something like this....

the first was about a worm that i found was living in my left ear.. he had a castle made out of wax and had a lot of food supplies which included dry fruits...he thought that i harbored him as a pet.. i think he was invading my private property... bloody invader kahin kaa!!

and the other was the 1 in which my jaw fell apart (no blood - blood would have killed my dream) and i am holding it back my hand trying to convince some women.. i am not wrong..it was not my fault... but still i am sorry... (since then i am a cynic...)

but somehow life is still beautiful..
:p

i guess i need to start meditating..exercise... drive all the evil away and control alcohol ..(but somehow oldMONK will be spared)

agar zindagy mein naa dikhawa hota...
aur mout ek khwaab hota.. 
to afsos dharti per hi narak hota
chahe charo aur khuda kyun naa hota..

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life ...

u meet d most interesting ppl in the least expected way at the most un-thought of place.. But only at d right time.. Life is then beautiful.. Go out there.. Explore.. Cherish and enjoy it!!

i met a bastard cop.. i met irritating constipating fellow travelers on the train...i met a poor riksha puller who was very happy to take the mango drink as baksheesh ... i met an amazing old but new friend... i met a gay who is smarter and sane than most of us straight men...i met a girl who is mad about my amazing old but new friend.... i met yet another old friend...i met my crazy friend who still forgives me for being mean to him and pull a prank on him at every opportunity... i met a happy Nepali guy who was happy to travel with his folks to a temple in his youth... i met a stranger who became my good friend...i met 2 american pot heads who were madly in love with INDIA.... i met a business man who showed more faith in me than my fellow passengers on rajdhani...i met poor street vendors who had a bigger smile on their face than rich shop keepers.. i met a monk with strange insane sense of humor who kept my bottle of rum in safe custody till i took a look at his temple and his god... i met a schizophrenic women who looked gorgeous even at her old age...i met and old schoolmate with her husband and her beautiful daughter... i met and amazing baker.. i met a autowalah who charged me by the meter in Delhi knowing the fact that i am a tired tourist with a big haversack ...i met a guy who didn't utter a single word through out his 16 hour journey on train....

i met a different part of me which i didn't know existed...

i met peace.. i met nature.. i met a FRIEND...i met LOVE.. i almost met GOD!!!!!!

thank you Mcleod Ganj... thank you Dharamkot.. !!

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something...of a dream

some dreams are so real that you don't ever want to wake up... they are so real that u never know when they get over...

i mean the day you remember the end of your dream.. the dream is not real.. coz your sub-conscious mind is too strong... it has complete control over what you wish to dream

yesterdays dream was a fantasy ...just don't remember how it ended...but the end must have made me proud... seemed so real that for the first time my conscious and  sub-conscious were at sync.... she must have been the real goddess in my dream and i must have been her worshiper ...

there was no influence of alcohol.. just the peaceful sleep i had wish for...there was no wish of dreaming about her... but it happened ultimate randomly that why its very important...


PS: just a random thought

something tells me.. i am tired... tired of something... i guess ill stop doing something and start doing something... i hope i find something interesting .. and that something keeps me ALIVE!!


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blind!! only the blind dream!!

when u are in love...life is really has a different meaning...all together...
i mean i always thought ... i am normal...but now i know i am special... like they call the spastic ppl...special !!!

she troubles me... i am so scared to look into her eyes.. if she is smart...she will read through my eyes... and i will have no answer ..only a lot of love to offer her.....

she makes my knees weak... she drives me nuts... and she kills me again and again only to bring me back to life with a lot more love... every time!!

all of my love...all of my love.... all of my love....!!

only the blind dream!!


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life and wise men... and directionless thought !!

the faster you run away from it.. the more frustrating it gets...and if you get closer ..you want to run away from it.. LIFE!!


when the wise men say... life is the best teacher.. it sounds funny... but when you experience it first hand..u want to kill the wise man.... may be if he didn't tell you the truth about life... you would have never figured it out :D


a phraand (Kshitij Chawla) recently posted a very nice comment on Facebook.. (if i had to mess with his name i wud say... shit is chawla :-/ ... but he is a good phraand whom i have not met...so many if he read this...and may be if we meet...he slap me )


Zindagi majboori hai. Conceive huye majboor thhey, paida huye majboor thhey. Majbori thi toh school chaley gaye, ladki patana biological majboori ban gaya. Ab majboori mein khana banana seekh rahe hain...


lucky bastard i must say... khana banana ek super duper timepass hai... it helps you forget about life... especially if you are cooking non-veg...


Luhar Sinsahk daru peena bhi majboori hai... jindagy sab seekha deti hai....


Parag Misra zindagi majboori hai...but kya kare khelna bhi zaroori hai aur pelna bhi...


so confusing... so frustrating... cant understand i am happy or sad ... dont understand if this was supposed to be a happy post...a sad post...or funny 1... or sarcastic 1... 


there is random music playing and its controlling my  4 sense.... the fifth 1 is controlling the 6th sense....


SP... where the fuck have you disappeared?? 

PS: not drunk...not high...not sober.. not hungry... not bored...not entertained.. not tired.. not handicapped... just misplaced in time.. and thoughts :)
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fuck me up!!

its so easy to fuck with me...and my mind... and put me in a downward spiral... its just not funny..

but the best part is....i am a goldfish...  my memory is like a goldfish... i go to sleep...and i forget everything...

and then some sweet motherfucker will fuck my brains out...completely... !!
and then i solve the issue with a nice 8 hour sleep!!


dude...u must have been kidding...but it fucked my mind completely... i hope u were kidding!! its really not what i wanted to hear at this moment of time...may be after a few more days...

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oh she looked so beautiful today!!!!

saw her exactly after a week....and i couldn't help my self more...all i did was stare at her... a couple of times and thanked GOD for the moment!!

OH!! she looked so beautiful today!!!

when she leaves her hair open...i want to be the breez...that play with her long black hair..  and when she is tensed i want to be the joke ... who will put a smile on her face... 


sala samay thamtaa bhi nahi hai... ooske saamne!!


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The endless river Forever and ever ...

its good when life finds its own path..just like a river... but the fuck up is good rivers have awesome water falls... so a awesome life WILL have good falls!!

the only thing u need to do is gather yourself... and move on...

its not difficult ...
its not easy...
its crazy...
its normal...

since.. i am sober today...i am high on music... to cut it short...

The grass was greener
The light was brighter
The taste was sweeter
The nights of wonder
With friends surrounded
The dawn mist glowing
The water flowing
The endless river


Forever and ever

taken from pink floyd's the division bell... "high hopes"

below is what is my clear POV... bear with it..

they made real good music ... they showed us a new way of looking it life in a way that we enjoy... that is trough music...

they conquered the world.. but in the end they were still human... they made mistakes and pretty impressive mistakes... they fought like kids little kids on the streets and they fought like split couples...

but EMOTIONS got them... and live8 was a good platform to get back together.. for 1 final gig on earth..together as the legendary PINK FLOYD (Richard packed his bags soon after that )

the next 1 together will definitely be " the great GIG in the SKY"

not sure who will go next...but it can be you or me... very much before David Roger and Nick!!!

pink floyd at live8 - (L-R) David, Roger, Nick, Richard


one line that i love from this album - from the song poles apart...
"i never thought you would lose the light in your eyes..."

kiske liye likha hai yeh line??

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lie to me...

they teach us "happiness is just around the corner"...lekin bada hone ke baad we learn "bhenchod!! the earth is kinda round" :
they lie to us again and again...and we believe them again and again....




i am what this song says....


Can't run fast enough
Can't hide I can't fly
I'm struggling with the limits of this ordinary life

I'm just a
Just a
Just a first try

I'm just a
Just a
Just a first try

Can't hear what you say
Can't see by the light
I'm struggling with the limits of this ordinary life

I'm just a
Just a
Just a first try

I'm just a
Just a
Just a first try

Can't say what I mean
Can't love from the heart
Can't trust in the mercy and the goodness in the world
Can't learn to accept that it's alright
To struggle with the limits of this ordinary life

Can't be
Just a
Just a
Just a first try
Can't be
Just a
Just a
Just a first try
Just a
Just a
Just a first try


taken from tracy chapmans telking stories album - its called FIRST try!!


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hmmm....

this guy who invited me to the wrong blog for collaborating must really be talli tonite ;)

can't find a good ass pic to post for him, lucky for him Google is slow!

gimme the right rights, dude!

pearl floyd zeppelin !!

then there are times i wondered why aint i a rock star??... i mean ...kisi ke baap ka kya jaata ...if i were eddie...if i were roger....if i were robert....jimmy...david...for that matter ...fucking curt cobain... atleast i wud have my time when i wud sing rape me on the fuckin stage and audience wud love me...

unhone apne peechle janam mein kya gul khilaye the ki woh is zindagy mein itne bade stars bane....

i mean why aren't u the one who invented the telephone...why are u not the 1 who invented old monk...

i wish i cud do something for which ppl wud remember for a very long time.......

i better STFU!! and get on with my life !!

raKH05041982

46.5 kgs!!

46.6 kgs is what it took ...took to teach me a lesson... there are 2 kind of beauty...

i was wrong... i was very very wrong.....
u need to look within ...and then when u need to look outwards from within...
when u are trying to look within...if u are drunk or blind it helps...
but when u are looking outwards from withing.. please make sure the eyes are open...and muthafuckr is not drunk...
drinking does not solve any problem... but it can really please ur senses at times...

when u look within...u get to see the beauty that the whole world sees...
but when u see outside...u get to learn how different the person really is...
actually its not that the person is different....
its a fact that u din't/don't want the person to be like that...
coz you have a certain picture created in your chronic mind...
its like you have built walls for your thoughts and there is only 1 exit ...
and the exists only leads to disappointment of a certain kind.... a
and this disappointment makes u think so hard that the mind hurts...
and this is when at times in life u feel alive!! ...

some ppl know whats best for them and sometimes these things that you want can never come in a single package..
so at every point... these ppl are forced to make complicated mistakes and be proud of it....
at 1 point of time it seems irrelevant and at other times is just perfect...
life gets comfortable when u start making complicated mistakes...
this is the time we think that we have figured it all out and then boom... life changes!!
you make a wrong move you do not make a mistake....

no wonder ppl hate crossroads ... specially when all the four directions suit you...

pink suits her...blond suits her... black suits me...blond suits me.. playing suits her...playing along suits me....retro suits her ... rock'n'roll suits me.. beer suits her... alcohol suits me...

i think ...she suits me perfect...and i know me well when i am making complicated mistakes...

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simple....

its really not at all simple.....life...
if you are a human....

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wajan ghataye ke liye paani peejiye

there are many who love to drink...and u know i am talking about rum or whiskey...so do i... and jab se i have stopped having them with the super all mighty fucked up black cola...i am able to control my wajan...

no no...this is not the wajan u through about to get things done under the table or behind the curtains.. i am talking about the charbi ....excess sugar which i stored on us...

water got in...and black colored colas out...and i am healthy again....

who ever said rum + coke must have not really needed all those calories....

PS: the internet loneliness alcohol is back in life...should help in updating blog at regular intervals...
PS: wajan ghatane ke liye...cola nahi pani peejiye.. :D
PS2: is outdated
PS3 is very expensive.
:|

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