all is violent .. all is bright

sometimes being an asshole is so easy.. its just not funny...
random crazy carefree and thoughtless actions help you be 1..

if i had one msg for the last few weeks of my life..its would be... i am sorry for being an asshole i didn't enjoy... i cud have done better.. i will .. try at least!!

if only i had a magic wand like that chutiya harry potter.. i wud have changed  few things in the last week.. that will definitely wont haunt me when i am drunk on my fav old monk...

butterNan.. u are sweet.. i am crazy.. i wud only get fucked if u followed this blog like 1 once asked u to.. just pray that no one puts those electrical wires in to this dumb brain of mine .. afterall there are now more than 9 million bicycles in Beijing..  ;)

i am still yet to find a nice alias for her.. all she does is be her. and all i do is ..admire her..
she is indeed very very beautiful.. and she is my hello kitty !!
she is random and really interesting ..
she is fun to be in admiration with..
she is skittish..
she is ...

captions are just words.. sometimes words are just not enough..

thoughts arrive like a butterfly but her aura lingers on... #crazyness

its been a long since when i last heard god is an astronaut and this time its much more fun..

(life is crazy naa?? after all its just our state of mind.. #life there is always a war going on .. )

raKH05041982

dreams....

i had a yet another fucked 2 crazy dreams...i guess i dont remember 100% of the dream but they were something like this....

the first was about a worm that i found was living in my left ear.. he had a castle made out of wax and had a lot of food supplies which included dry fruits...he thought that i harbored him as a pet.. i think he was invading my private property... bloody invader kahin kaa!!

and the other was the 1 in which my jaw fell apart (no blood - blood would have killed my dream) and i am holding it back my hand trying to convince some women.. i am not wrong..it was not my fault... but still i am sorry... (since then i am a cynic...)

but somehow life is still beautiful..
:p

i guess i need to start meditating..exercise... drive all the evil away and control alcohol ..(but somehow oldMONK will be spared)

agar zindagy mein naa dikhawa hota...
aur mout ek khwaab hota.. 
to afsos dharti per hi narak hota
chahe charo aur khuda kyun naa hota..

raKH05041982

oh she looked so beautiful today!!!!

saw her exactly after a week....and i couldn't help my self more...all i did was stare at her... a couple of times and thanked GOD for the moment!!

OH!! she looked so beautiful today!!!

when she leaves her hair open...i want to be the breez...that play with her long black hair..  and when she is tensed i want to be the joke ... who will put a smile on her face... 


sala samay thamtaa bhi nahi hai... ooske saamne!!


raKH05041982

u n t i t l e d

Breathe, breathe in the air.....

there are a lot of wonderful things happening in this world at any given time...unfortunetely we can not know and experience them.... we can not be at two places at the same time....we can only be human... we cant emulate GOD

there are a few things u want to experience again and again in life...thats when u realize that u are an addict... few of the times its useless and few other times its utter useless...but nevertheless its all bullshit in the end...

pink floyd said it very beautifully...

Long you live and high you fly
And smiles you'll give and teas you'll cry
And all you touch and all you see
Is all your life will ever be.


so now... there are many a times we make mistakes in our life... we are suppose to make mistakes.. coz thats how we learn... we make mistakes and we learn... we are "supposed" to learn from our mistake....so that we dont repeat them..... but many times what happens is... we repeat the mistakes....

we pay for the mistakes we make...sometimes we love it ...sometimes we hate it...so at times we make a mistake we love tp make ... coz we think we have made the right mistake... coz if we had made the wrong mistake...the consequences would be far more worse than that of the right mistake....but thats now how i think it should be... but in the ned...even i am human...

For long you live and high you fly
But only if you ride the tide
And balanced on the biggest wave
You race towards an early grave.

with most of us...no matter how hard we try.... we dont want to make new mistakes....we are happy making the same old mistakes.... we hate to make new mistakes in life.... we dont want to learn new things.... if mistakes teach us.. if mistakes are the stepping stone to success... we shud make more mistakes...newer mistakes.. and lean as much as we can.... we keep making the same old mistake ...coz may be we are afraid of change...change is a must when we are traveling in a public transport ....today i lost 50 paise ....conductor refused to give me change... i failed to tender exact change....


shall complete this tough one laters... too sleepy as of now... please ......