sensei

you always wanted to see how singleness hurts.. how difficult it is being by yourself hurts..

you wanted me to be your guinea pig of curiosity ... i agreed...

not sure why i volunteered.. but not sure if i did... nor sure if i am being one.. nor is it helping me..

it might just be my inane stubborn mind that is just me... that is not wanting and not letting me change,.....


all said and done.. if i said i miss you.. you would win... laugh it out.. call me an asshole...

but everybody needs an asshole... all those who don't want to be full of shit..

its not that i dont miss you.. but missing you is not getting me anywhere..


you were strong.. you are strong.. ( thats what i want to believe.. i might be wrong)


you can have the last laugh if you want...

coz i have forgotten to laugh... (i was once good at it... it helped me get away to wonderland)

#period


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